Caught!

Alright. Last night, watching tv, and a big marriage proposal comes on. I'm not going to say what show, in case anyone makes fun of me. If you watch the show, you know. And cheesy, and silly and all that jazz...but when he goes down on one knee, and presents the ring (nice rock, btw) and she looks at it...I tear up a little. Just a little. Enough though that the guy I live with and love says "AHA!" and calls me on it. Okay. Now, I don't believe in marriage (see previous post), and I don't believe in happily ever after, I'm not sure if I even believe in monogamy. (Just a note- I AM monogamous. But I don't believe it is for everyone, or even that it is the way we are supposed to be as human beings- but thats a whole other post!)
But I'm still a girl. And it has been ingrained in me. There is something about a marriage proposal- its romantic, and beautiful, and....yeah, it makes me cry a little. So do weddings! Watching a wedding, even on tv, brings a little tear. (And not because I feel sorry for the poor suckers.).

I guess its not so much the proposal, or the wedding, its the feeling of hope it represents. The romance of someone throwing caution to the wind and getting down on their knees and asking someone else to love them. The pure hopefullness and belief in forever that saying "I do" represents. Its pretty, and lovely to see.

But I still wouldn't want to do it myself. I will just admire it from afar, and feel a little sad when it inevitably fails. Because that part is the fairy tale part...and fairy tales are pretend.

Welcome 2012!

Well...its 2012. How the hell did that happen? And lots of talk about this being the end of the world. Well...lets make it a good year then! December is insane- both my kids have their birthdays, toss that in with Christmas and New Years and by the time Christmas day is over I am ready to fall over. I love Christmas though. And despite my not wanting to do New Years Resolutions and all that jazz....there is something about starting a new year fresh that is appealing. This past year has already been filled with lots of resolutions- things I wanted to accomplish in my 40th year. I have kicked ass through lots of them...but the list is still pretty long. I've got 5 months left to finish up THAT list of resolutions. So beginning a new year is a good way to re-assert and review, and make me get my butt in gear for the ones still waiting patiently on the list. Next up are learning spanish and going skiing for the first time in about 15 years. I'm also hoping to get a little more savvy with this whole blog/social media thing- I'm still just an infant with it all, and don't REALLY know what I'm doing. And...there are lots of other things on my To-do list. If I ever get to the end of it....then it probably is the apocalypse.